Sunday, February 20, 2011

Waffles

For many families around the world, food is the only daily break from the tedium of life’s various tasks and for many it is the only time the family is all together. Growing up, dinner time was a mandatory attendance event for my family and until my sister and I started making dinner one night a week my mother cooked every dinner. Granted this could be considered a tradition but for the most part we never fully appreciated the meal since we were probably being called away from play time to eat it. On the other hand my father cooked breakfast every Saturday until he retired from active duty and entered the National Guard and then the ritual was cut back by one weekend per month. In his eyes this may have actually been a good thing since he could only cook three things; pancakes, French toast, and everyone’s favorite Belgium Waffles.

Belgium Waffles were more of an art than food for dad and when we were little he was still working on tweaking his recipe to perfection. After years of adding and subtracting various and sometimes strange ingredients, he was satisfied and his waffles as were my taste buds. The pancakes were good and the French toast a powdery sugar delight but his waffles were the only food that kept my sister and me from asking to be excused early. There was another Saturday morning ritual tied to this which my parents initiated intentionally with the single purpose of dividing our family of four into two groups. Under no circumstances were we ever allowed to watch Saturday morning cartoons and a threat of the TV being permanently removed seemed like the most unimaginable punishment. So, we did what any red blooded American child would do, very quietly sneak into the den and watch our cartoons with the volume so low our noses almost touched the screen to hear it, and could feel  the static electricity of the screen tweaking at your hair and eyelashes. My father confided to me many years later that they had devised the scheme knowing we be up at 6 watching cartoons in relative silence so my parents could enjoy the only day they could sleep in. 


In June 2008 my wife and I announced that we were expecting a baby in January. My mother was overjoyed to the point of tears while my father remained stoic offering only a slightly firmer handshake than usual. Half a year later on my Birthday our son was born and my parents came up to visit and stayed an extra week to celebrate, but since I had both hips replaced two months prior it was really to help us around the house and allow us to settle into parenthood. They arrived at our home dragging along one suit case and a few wrapped presents. After settling in dad started getting itchy for us to open the present’s which would be considered very odd behavior for him. We obliged and opened our son’s presents while mom snapped pictures. My family’s ritual for opening presents be it Christmas, Birthday, or baby shower, begins with the individual cards and then onto packages of increasing size until only the largest package remains.  To my surprise the last one wore my name on it and while I read the attached note I caught glances of my dad’s rarely seen smirkish smile.  As I tore off the wrapping paper to reveal its contents, his smirk broadened into almost certainly the cheesiest perma-grin ever to cross his face. The box contained a new Belgium waffle iron (one of the really nice ones that suspends the iron above the base and rotates 180 degrees once you pour in the batter). Included was a 3x5 note card with dad’s famous Saturday morning waffle recipe and with it the unspoken sentiment that he enjoyed making the waffles as much as we had enjoyed eating them. Now a few years later the iron is well seasoned turning out waffles every three minutes and with them another generation of memories of this Anderson family tradition.      

Friday, January 28, 2011

“Living With Pain is a Community and I am a Member”

“Living With Pain is a Community and I am a member”
To begin, living with chronic pain is not something you can imagine living with and have any real sense of how you will cope with it, or how it affects every aspect of your life and the lives of those closest to you. The first time I met with my neurologist there were a few other patients waiting and each looked as if they were slowly dying with blank stares and puffy dark eyes, each seemed to be resigned to their fate. I remember thinking they were probably all cancer patients with a short time to live and felt glad that I had a treatable though painful disease and resolved to remain upbeat and cheery no matter what.


The first time I visited a chronic pain (CP) forum was about 18 months later, just after learning the 2 bone grafting where failing already and I had only been walking unaided for 3 months. Up until this point I was certain I would continue to recover and eventually be pain free. While hope for eventual recovery remained, the enthusiasm and almost obnoxious optimism evaporated into the realization I would need total hip replacements (THR) at 29 years old. I finally joined the group and made my inaugural post after meeting with one orthopedic surgeon who said he wouldn’t consider me for THR for another few years and 5 others who wouldn’t even see me because of age regardless of need.. Already prescribed twice the maximum dose of the strongest non-hospice pain medication, and crutching around on one partially collapsed femoral head, the other with a fracture running through it, I could feel the jagged bone gouge into the joint causing more swelling and more pain. My friends were all off doing the activities we previously had in common and being completely isolated most of the time I turned to this online community for answers, help, friendship, and support.

What makes this group a community is the understanding and acceptance that comes from other CP sufferers, and the willingness to help others in any way they can. Helping out a newcomer with information links or a word of encouragement puts the focus on something other than you and helps drive camaraderie and goodwill. The basic need is understanding, interests vary but have a foot in service and recovery, and values range but most find that love and respect are cornerstones.

Differences and tensions don’t really work against community cohesion and if someone is having a particularly bad or grumpy day the policy is kill ‘em with kindness. CP doesn’t discriminate and whether white, black, young, or old, its steady erosive affects on mind, body, and spirit, generally isolate sufferers from physical relationships and the opportunity to meet online is a life changing opportunity for most.

I fit into this group as a member and fellow person living with chronic pain. Adding experience, references, encouragement, and if required transportation for other members less able. Who would want to be a part of this group? You have to be in long term pain to even find yourself there and most people don’t go looking for that kind of thing;-) Seriously though, the majority of the people who stick around and support the community would give you the shirt off their back and then thank you for the chance of letting you have it. Hopefully you don’t find yourself in need of membership but you will be glad to be once you are.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

"What's In Your Wallet?"

It doesn’t really take a look inside my wallet to start drawing conclusions about what sort of person I might be. I’ve heard various ramblings about “George Costanza’s wallet” while the Safeway checker waits for me to extricate my “Club Card” from the overcrowded credit card slots bursting with old worthless gift cards and nine different insurance cards.  

There was a time not long ago that my wallet was slim, orderly, and frequently pared down to essential ingredients. No family or financial obligations cleared out the card slots and the picture fold was removed and immediately lost. A few years, one wedding, four hip replacements, and a son later, I can no longer comfortably carry anything in my back packet and my once slim wallet has grown to colossal proportions. You see, once a wallet is freed of a man’s rear pocket and you’re no longer reminded by physical pain or a seventeen degree tilt that stuff needs to be cleaned out, things progress rapidly and soon your wallet looks more like a U, than a V.

What might a person find on closer inspection of this overstuffed wallet? Weight 19 grams, circumference 11.5 inches, contents; drivers license of a 32 year old 6’2” white guy, assorted gift cards none of which seem to be new, nine different medical insurance cards, vehicle insurance cards for a Honda, BMW, Toyota, and a Ducati motorcycle, a half dozen USPS money order stubs made out to different names, three life time warranty cards, Costco membership, Cabela’s Club card, AAA Plus membership, Ducati road side assistance, a current Everett Community College student ID, EvCC Book store buy 10 energy drinks get the 11th free punch card (nine stamps on this bad boy), US Bank ATM card, Metropolitan Credit Union member card,  and hallelujah not a single credit card.

What kind of assumptions would a person make about me by the contents of my wallet? A 30’s something guy with a family, 4 insured vehicles, and enrolled as a student doesn’t really make much sense, but what does these days. There are lots of little interactions and affiliations with different companies, but nothing really jumping out and to say “this man stands for that”. On closer inspection there is one long missing piece I think would do just that. I don’t need to buy a new wallet, maybe just find a suitable replacement for that long lost picture fold insert, and get some photos of my wife and son in there.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

I'm in print!

"Things are going to start happening to me now."
Name that great 1979 Comedy this quote is from.